Whatever Wednesday: My stupid mouth

So, I have to start off by talking about something that's been on my mind, and I'll admit, it could piss some people off. I've gotten crap for talking badly about another blog before, because I'm supposed to be more mature, and better than that. But, the thing is, I'm not. I mean, I am in the sense that I don't like to talk crap just for the sake of talking crap. I'm not going to sit here and bash someone just because I'm jealous, or bored, or want to start something. But, I am the type of person that when I'm annoyed, or I have an opinion on something, I can't help but voice it. It's why I could never be a politician, or famous (well, ONE of the reason, among many others.) I just can't be diplomatic. If I don't like something, I have to say it.

I won't name blogs, I guess, if that helps. But, I'm sure most of you read it, and I'm sure most of you will be able to guess which blog I'm talking about.

I made a comment in the comments sections a post or two ago where I said I didn't want you guys to feel like you HAVE to give me compliments. I want you to know that I DO appreciate them, I really do. You guys have been amazing, and I don't think I've really gotten any negative comments. But, I also don't know if this is because on other blogs, the second you say something negative, you seem to get reamed for it. That's not going to happen here. I can't promise that if you have something negative to say that I'm going to change anything, but I can promise that your comments will not be used against you, as long as you're being respectful while you're saying whatever it is you're saying.

There's a certain blog out there that I love, I think the author is REALLY talented. However, I also think the author is REALLY full of herself, and I hate the way she treats her readers. So much so, that it's really turning me off her blog. I think being a blog reader helps me with you guys, because I know the things that annoy me while reading a blog, and I try to put it to good use here. I want you guys to know, I appreciate you guys. I'm a little insecure in my writing, and I didn't think anyone would like it. Even now, when you guys say things like it's good, I wonder if you're telling the truth, or just afraid I'll stop writing or throw a tantrum if you say the truth. I won't. It's not hard to write for you guys, I love to hear you can't wait for a post, because more often than not, I can't wait for you guys to read a post.

That's not saying it's always EASY to come up with a post. Lately it's been feeling a little forced. But, sometimes that happens. Sometimes I can crank out four posts in a matter of minutes, sometimes one post takes four hours and I'm still not happy with it. But I realize any pressure I'm under, is pressure I'm putting on myself. Yes, I want people to like what I do. Yes, my ego gets stroked when someone gives me a compliment. But it's not like I'm writing for the New York Time's or something. It's not like I'm under the pressure of a deadline that I got paid for, and have already spent my advance. It's an internet blog. One day, I'm sure, it will end. Nobody's going to die because that happens. People may get disappointed, but hell, I get disappointed when a good book ends. Does that mean the writer of that book never should have finished things?

I'm just really annoyed at what was sad on another blog, and I want you guys to know, it really is OK if you have something negative to say. I can't promise it'll change anything, but I can promise you won't be chastised like you're four years old, or held up to be made an example of. It won't happen.

Anyway, on to better things. I've been in a perpetually bad mood for awhile. It's gotten better this week, but by the end of last week, I was just fed up with everything. Part of it was my son... I love him to death, but he is obviously a LOT of work, and sometimes I just want to call in sick, but I can't. I was also having a tad bit of family drama. Partially because my family thinks that because I'm a stay at home Mom, I don't do anything, and can be at their beck and call for everything, which... I dunno. Then, I'm also tired of hearing things like "cut Jeremy (my husband) a break. He works!"

....And I don't? At least Jeremy knows that he's going to get a 15 minute break where he doesn't have to do anything. At least he knows he's going to get a lunch break where he can sit down, eat, and not have to worry about trying to multi-task. When Cayden was younger, it was worse. I wasn't sure IF I'd get to eat, or even go to the bathroom! Now he's a little older, it's a little better and worse in some ways. I can leave the room for five minutes and get lunch for him and I, but there's no telling what I'll come back too.

However, Saturday seemed to help my bad mood a little. My Mom came over, and we took Cayden Trick or Treating at Toys R us (which, at our store was kind of a joke. However, we also went Trick or Treating at Kroger's at this thing they threw, and while Cayden was too young to really do much, it was fantastic for older kids!) Then we took Cayden to get his first haircut, which was a little rough on me (I loved his curls! But he was starting to grow wings and look shabby.) So... I comforted myself by getting him a mohawk...




He looks so cute! Then Mom, Jeremy, Cayden and I spent the rest of the day eating lunch and hanging out. We came back home and Mom ended up having a surprise for us. She bought us DJ Hero, which is amazing. My Mom is the type of Mom who really has a hard time with emotions, so instead of saying Thanks for helping out, or I'm sorry, or whatever, she buys us stuff. It sounds awesome, but sometimes it REALLY hurt my feelings. However, I realized that it's not really going to change, so. I've kind of accepted it and moved on. So Saturday night, after Mom took Cayden, we hung out at home and played some DJ Hero. Sunday we went back to Mom's to hang out, and we got to meet a new baby! He's my husband's friend's son, I'd post a picture but I don't know how he feels about that. However, holding a baby has sparked my baby fever even more. Again, I love my son, but he is NOT a baby anymore, and I forgot how nice it was just to be able to sit and hold a baby, without them wiggling or squirming. So, if you pray, please pray that this is the month I get pregnant! I'm so ready! Plus, I think it would be fantastic to announce it to everyone at Christmas!

Speaking of Christmas, I'm still ahead of my game, and SO excited about it. How early is too early to put out decorations? http://sites.target.com/images/2009HolidayCoupons/holiday_coupons_print.html?AFID=Performics_DealsPlus&LNM=Primary

For those of you who use coupons, and shop at Target, there are some Target coupons you can print. They're fantastic, I'm so excited to go on Thursday to pick up some stuff. I also found the Little Tikes Pick up truck we want to get Cayden on craigslist, that I'll be hopefully able to get Thursday as well (new it's 100 dollars, craigslist, it's less than 20!) They also have the wagon I want to get on craigslist, it looks new, and even comes with a trailer for less than 100. I'm hoping to try to get that, although we don't have THAT much money to spend this week.

Alright, and once again, I have to pimp my swagbucks. I know this might get annoying, but as I said before, I AM a stay at home Mom, so I don't make my own money. While my husband is ALWAYS willing to give me money, I do feel bad asking him to pay for his own Christmas gift, ya know? So, I'm trying to earn swagbucks in order to go out and get his present, as well as a few other presents. So far, you guys have been GREAT about swagbucks, and I'm really getting a lot. However, I know there are some new people, so I wanted to talk about it briefly again.

Swagbucks is a search engine powered by ask.com and google (so it's a good search engine, not crappy). You search, and while you're searching, you randomly win swagbucks. You can also win swagbucks by finding codes on their blog, in their newsletter, or on twitter or facebook, or by referring friends, like I'm trying to do now. For every swagbuck your friend wins, you get, up to 100 swagbucks. They also have a real store, where you spend real money, and you can get 1 swagbuck for every 5 dollars you spend, which isn't bad if you're going to be buying that product anyway. However, I didn't have any friends my first month on swagbucks, and I still made quite a bit (enough to get my restaurants.com giftcard and one amazon card). You trade your swagbucks in at the swag store, and you can pick various prizes. Some are a little more expensive (they have game systems and ipods and all that) and some aren't (my 5 dollar amazon cards are 45 swagbucks.) I've been on there probably less than 3 months, and I've gotten a 25 dollar gift certificate to restaurants.com, and 5 five dollar amazon gift cards.

Now, I will say the bad thing about swagbucks is, you really need to READ the product description before you "buy" it. All the rules are clearly listed, some giftcards cannot be combined together (though the amazon cards can) They have a paypal card, but it has to be used in a certain amount of time or it goes bad. All the giftcards can ONLY be used online (like they have barnes and nobles cards, but you can only use them at barnesandnoble.com) with the exception of the starbucks card (that they actually mail to you.) The amazon cards (and this may be true for all the cards, I can only speak for the amazon cards since that's what I've been buying) only get emailed out twice a month, so you do have to plan in advance (meaning you can't order it today expecting to be able to use it tonight on a purchase.)

Still, I think it's a pretty good deal for getting something for pretty much nothing. If you have any questions feel free to email me, or ask in the comments. If you sign up, please click the banner so that I get your points too!:


Alright, I think that's all I got. Please keep in mind also, that my FIL's surgery is next Thursday, so postings that day may or may not be up, and the schedule might get kind of wonky depending on what happens.